we are just being philosophical..

2010-12-12T04:51:00.000-08:00

BACK TO TUMBLR~!!

Back at One

2010-11-16T17:04:00.001-08:00

It's undeniable that we should be together

It's unbelievable how I used to say that I'd fall never

The basis is need to know if you don't know just how I feel

Then let me show you now that I'm for real

If all things in time, time will reveal, yeah

One, you're like a dream come true

Two, just wanna be with you

Three, girl, it's plain to see

That you're the only one for me

And four, repeat steps one through three

Five, make you fall in love with me

If ever I believe my work is done

Then I'll start back at one, yeah yeah

It's so incredible, the way things work themselves out

And all emotional once you know what it's all about, hey

And undesirable for us to be apart

I never would've made it very far

'Cause you know you got the keys to my heart

'Cause, one, you're like a dream come true

Two, just wanna be with you

Three, girl, it's plain to see

That you're the only one for me

And four, repeat steps one through three

Five, make you fall in love with me

If ever I believe my work is done

Then I'll start back at one

Say farewell to the dark of night, I see the coming of the sun

I feel like a little child whose life has just begun

You came and breathed new life into this lonely heart of mine

You threw out the lifeline just in the nick of time

One, you're like a dream come true

Two, just wanna be with you

Three, girl, it's plain to see

That you're the only one for me

And four, repeat steps one through three

Five, make you fall in love with me

If ever I believe my work is done

Then I'll start back at one

Breathing Love

2010-11-13T04:59:00.000-08:00

"Loving is like running.. You can't stop running, because there is no finish line in life.."
-Delacrix Morgan

Love was always the missing part of my life..
It's been a while..

I always has amazed with couplism,
at the same time hating them on how selfish it can be..

Some say love can change everything,
I'm waited to be change..

To be forgiven is not to surrender,
but to be change..

It's an era of romance,
everyone falling in love..

Love is all possible,
because love is an illusion..

Intoxicated Insanity of love

2010-11-01T19:44:00.000-07:00

It begins by questioning motives,

where there seemed none to be questioned..

It is the question of faith,

between that fellowship which seemed to be hollow..

Suppose to be that everything need to begin,

which seemed so purposeful,

which seemed so insincere,

which seemed starting to questioning my very self..

‎"Love is instant.. Love is insane.. Truly, Deeply, Madly.."
-Delacrix Morgan

Isn't love unconquerable?

That intoxicated kiss,

is no match on how much I've put into life alone,

in the life of others..

It was a huge impact of my life,

no matter how much I've tried to make you happy,

no matter how much I've tried to kill off everything in my life,

by filling in with yours..

It's nothing more,

nothing as much,

nothing as much as,

how easily love can be instant..

I may be a saddist,

I may be a the dark rose amongst the reddish glamour..

Is the world,

that doesn't allow me, to ever smile that sincerely ever again..

Kiss upon that touch..

a moment, a love

a dream, a laugh

a kiss, a cry

Essence of My Life

2010-10-29T19:47:00.000-07:00

My love for you is thy breath,

I can feel your very pulse,

I can feel your very warmth,

I can feel your very spirit of life..

Do you want to hurt me?

I've impaired hearing,

can't you see that I hate phone calls?

can't you see that I text all the time?

It was all a coincident,

speaking of fiction,

which later became reality,

that doesn't seemed so..

There was always you all along,

it was just a decoy,

which ain't so..

Just you..

If you can see others,

why not us?

If you felted it too,

why not speak of something?

I just want to hear your very voice..

I just want to see your very smile..

I just want to feel you,

the essence of that filled my life..

Love Potion

2010-10-28T03:23:00.000-07:00

Time can synthesize the perfect love potion..

It triumphs over how sincere loyalty is,

It triumphs over how looks are being important,

It triumphs over how one can say about love..

There is no right or wrong answer within every love confession,

I love you, isn't that simple enough?

Why love you is always the wrong answer,

I love you, isn't that simple enough?

I may not be that good looking,

I may not be that creative while talking,

I may not make you laugh all the time,

But..

I can always be sincere,

I can always be humourous,

I can always make you smile,

Kiwi..

Isn't that simple enough?

Brittle Key

2010-10-27T06:01:00.000-07:00

I can only love one person at a time,

I'll give you everything my tiny heart can give..

All I can give is little..

All I can say is whisper..

I couldn't able to stay by you every minute of my life,

but I'm willing to spend every second of my life thinking of you..

With such little heart,

I can think nothing but you..

My love is pure,

my love is innocent..

With that tiny heart of mine,

only for you..

..will always be with you.. =D

Lost is Found

2010-10-26T05:37:00.000-07:00

You have darkness where you can feel safe with my arms around you..

You have sadness where you can feel relieved with my care towards you..

You have coldness where you can feel the warmth of my heart..

You have me where I will always be there for you..

Romance leads to Sea of Desperation,

Desperation leads to Voyage of Affection,

Affection leads to Rafts of Uncertainty,

Uncertainty leads to Sail of Blessing..

in Disguise..

Lost, is found..

Something lost is something found..

You found it when you know it is lost..

What you don't know often being underestimated..

We lost our love,

every piece of it lost and shattered,

will soon be filled much more,

than just a dream..

Untitled Fondness

2010-10-13T08:12:00.000-07:00

"It seems lovely, that we can finally find what we've lost.."

-Delacrix Morgan

Love Confession

2010-10-11T06:02:00.000-07:00

♥ the world finally..

Broken Transmitter

2010-10-08T09:26:00.001-07:00

Death of the cripple is the only motivated reasoning for oneself..

With none, one can never neither see nor feel..

Everyone wishes to be pleased or to please itself,

love seemed to be in the air..

Every story, wishes to have its own beloved happily ever after,

it was finally that we realised our difference,

it is now the time of rejuvenate,

to heal the souls of the wounded..

Now, it doesn't matter whenever the soul is mine or yours,

for mine has already lost itself,

that has already taken,

that has already given, to you..

I've been waiting for years now,

ever holding that cellphone,

waiting and waiting,

for a ring..

I've always been very down of it,

the silence, the lifeless,

piece of radio transmitter in my pocket,

that wouldn't receive any transmitter back..

A phone that cannot ring, no longer have the reason to keeping it alive..

I'll Smile For You

2010-10-07T00:32:00.000-07:00

Every journey begins within itself..

Every adventure requires listening to oneself..

For every beating of a heart,

lies that silent voice of truth..

Everything can be said, as for every word can be mistaken..

As for words, it means nothing of a true heart..

Silence, was all required to realised,

when your true love lies before your eyes..

Voicelessness, is where one can understand the signs of love,

from within..

It is not words to say how you love her,

it is how you feeling that you want to care for her..

Although, you have lost someone,

but you can never lost that feeling..

For that feeling will never die out,

as for words can be forgotten and change from time to time..

.. kiwi,kiwi i won't let you go again..

"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.."

-Maya Angelou

Price for Adventure

2010-10-05T01:33:00.000-07:00

"The biggest price for adventure is allowing love to be impossible."

-Delacrix Morgan

Where Love Fails

2010-09-30T03:50:00.000-07:00

I just don't know why I'm so suddenly depress..

Perhaps over a text message..

Perhaps over a girl..

Why always there is a girl who makes my world happy and ruin it into pieces?

I just couldn't understand,

logic doesn't even apply..

Always and always is..

Why!? Why!? Kiwi!?

I thought I can get over with you now,

although I told everyone my feelings for you has already disappear..

But, somehow, just somehow you just have that place beside my heart..

Now, just a feeling that you keep stabbing me from within..

"However you define me as a friend, I will always put you beside my heart.."

-Delacrix Morgan

Everyone sees you as a spoiled brat,

selfish, arrogant..

I somehow just don't feel it that way,

I care for you, no matter how you want to deny it..

There is only one person that asking me to hang on to it,

a friend of yours, is a friend of mine..

It's kind of scary, ain't it?

That people all around know what is happening between us..

It's another sad story to be told,

it's another tear to be shed..

Does it have to be this way?

I want to be honest with you, as the way you're so honestly telling me, that you're frustrated with me..

Then, there is something went pass my mind..

That I can change you, somehow?

Oh, my.. Oh, my..

I don't know why that thought just surface itself just like that..

I am always with you,

since when I've left you?

You tell me..

Does that requires someone beside you to see it that way?

You have already countlessly silence me,

not that I've hurt you or talk bad of you..

Because it's that everything of me,

is just for you..

Like everyone can say,

you have no idea how much you have hurt me more than words and silence..

Why do you want us to be like this?

Are you happy about our situation like this?

Everyone around you, keep silencing my honesty to you..

They say I should shaddap and let it have your way..

They say that you will forget it and be well..

But the way I can see it, you're always making new scars and happy about it..

What have I done so bad for you to hate me so much?

Tell me..

Awaken Abyss

2010-09-29T05:24:00.000-07:00

Words of any kind,

I couldn't find the words to describe you..

For me,

love was never just full of words..

I always wonder where I can do better,

and wonder when I can make it up to you..

For me,

smile came first before one can even speak..

It always starts from little,

little by pieces of wonderful stuffs just for you..

For me,

I couldn't be a thousand roses or the countess starry night..

What I can give is everything I ever have,

and all I have is just my heart filled only with you..

For me,

you are the love of my life..

You are the only reason that I can feel,

the reason of the colours in my life,

the laughter of the sweetness in my life,

the presence of you in my life,

gave me the only reason for me to wake up each morning,

and I can never be that very reason in your life..

Hence...

2010-09-28T03:46:00.000-07:00

...I'm Not A Destination

Social Experiment 101: Care To Bother?

2010-09-28T02:52:00.000-07:00

I just really upset with people around me. That no one seems to care to continue the very conversation we are having. Always me starting the conversation, always me who starts a topic, continue the topic, maintaining the flow of that very conversation. Although it might be cousins or friends, no one seemed to care if the conversation is broken off.

Another thing I get very annoyed about, is that people only chat with you when they is a purpose. Hence, the purposeful conversation. That's why I'm doing this social experiment, I seriously have no idea why I'm doing this..

Perhaps might prove how stupid I was and I am for all these years..

For an never heading conversation.. = =

Starting Conversation

-purposeful?

-concern?

-purpose of their own?

Non-starting Conversation

-cold respond

-brb signal

-took long time for reply

p.s people reading this bloggie will be consider as a data..

I've no idea, how I'm going to start, or I never gonna start..

告诫天下所有的女生！

2010-09-27T08:50:00.000-07:00

男生真喜欢一个人，从眼睛就能看出来，
他恨不得栓着你，怎么会忽冷忽热、忽进忽退？
是，喜欢肯定有，总要他看着你顺眼才和你暧昧。
所以，对暧昧你的男人一定不要多情，
就算他常常拉你出来、天天短信、电话。
就算抱过、亲过，
也依然不代表什么，
什么都不是。
不要相信这种男生说的好话。
人都有惯性，
比如一个人天天9点打电话给你，
2个星期之后不打了，
你肯定难受。
这就是很正常的一个心理作用。
所以，当你习惯了他天天绕在你周围，
突然他又远离你的时候，
你不甘心了吧，开始惦记他了吧。
别相信你就真的那么喜欢他了，
这只是一个惯性作用而已。
别多想他，自己该干嘛干嘛，
过几天习惯了就又没事了。
然后他又热情起来了怎么办呢？
你要是还没看透，
还要入套我也没办法了。
说白了，
就算是特别喜欢他、
天天无时无刻不想着他了，
也要烂在心里，
绝对绝对不让他知道。
如果憋得慌，
可以跟好朋友说，
可以上网写出来发泄，
但就是不要对他说。
为什么？
因为作人姿态一定要漂亮，
就算你输了，
也只有自己知道，
他没有机会看低你。
经上所述：我觉得，女生，真的不要自作多情，
男生真的爱你又怎么会对你不负呢？
真的爱你怎么会伤害你让你难过？
真的爱你怎么不会好好疼你？
暧昧不是女生能玩得起的，
别一时冲昏了头，
让自己后悔！
不要把自己的时间浪费在男生身上、
男人不过如此、
我只能说现在不是时候、
做自己该做的、
忠爱自己、
女生，看透一切，努力成为一个完美的人才是最重要的。

Luxury of Moving

2010-09-26T00:07:00.000-07:00

By knowing the world, you risk on the world not knowing you..

There can be no attachment, there can be no belonging..

Well verse with the knowledge of everyday's life, every social circle..

In a more sentimental way of describing it, we both can be together forever..

I guess, from today, it is truly dead..

No matter how patient I am with you,

No matter how much I want to make up to you..

It's like trying on walk on water..

Until, the very day we meet again..

there can be no more..

You rejected my sincerity,

You rejected my honesty..

I really couldn't understand why..

Sometimes there is no reasons to begin with..

It is not that I hate you, it is that your eyes that took me for granted..

Oops, I just clicked removed.. happy now? = =

"The briefcase became my pen, the world my paper.."

-Erik Nordenankar

Another Love's Departure

2010-09-25T06:35:00.000-07:00

"It takes time to connect the dots, I know that. But I also know that there can be a day of reckoning when you wish you had connected the dots more quickly. "

- Al Gore

Prediction, that's what all we needed..

Sometimes we all wonder, whether we should have given more thought on this, given less on that..

Well, we couldn't connect the dots looking forward..

But, we can only connect the dots by looking backwards..

It was quite certain that I'm going to follow her to Australia a month ago,

now everything was just shattered around, leaving me waiting and waiting,

a wait of hoping her to come back into my life and become the colour of my life once again..

Until now, there is no doubt things will still be the same, much worse than just a smile..

We both have something in common,

we both hurt people through words and expression easily..

But, we have something different too,

blood is red to me, not to you..

I couldn't believe that, how much I've given to you..

Some might interpret it as I am angry with that..

It is partially true, that in fact I am not satisfied of my treatment..

I never question about how much I gave until the moment you questioned my thoughts..

Love, without question..

Love, without reason..

That seemed not enough for you..

That seemed nothing for you..

Time To Say Goodbye, Kiwi~

I Read You

2010-09-24T01:09:00.001-07:00

Life without love, is not worth the investment..

All you can ever feel is love..

All you can ever read if feel..

All you can ever love is read..

Body language..

I've found a way of reading it,

by experience,

a very bad experience..

Knowing is the gravest tragic among all tragics,

that ables you to read someone's mind,

you can always tell that they are lying,

you can always tell that they are avoiding..

It's that a sad life to begin with?

No matter how honest you are with them,

they will never ever be honest back to you..

the touch of phone,

the gaze of an eye,

the tone of question,

the pace of every step..

That's all you need to know,

for you to die,

for you to disappear,

for you to disperse..

I smile for you,

where there is no smiles in return..

Honey Tragic

2010-09-24T00:40:00.000-07:00

Sweet hollow,

a heart without warmth,

an iris without colour,

a smile without lips..

Always a sided love of decomposition,

where there's only allowing one to miss the other,

while the ignorance, the lack of understanding onto the other,

why there's always a story which begins from its ending?

Not much to say,

a script written in every part of my mind,

a roll of guilt this once for being myself,

a smiley face always has its last laugh..

How could, how could that,

only me who wants it to be all forgotten,

only me who wants things to be all understood,

only me who wants her to come back into my life?

Whatever happened to,

the laughters we use to have,

the popcorns we use to share,

the love we use to give?

..another soon to be forgotten romance tragic of delacrix morgan..

Love Without Reason

2010-09-21T04:16:00.000-07:00

I'm in love with love,

by the unspoken passion,

by the everyday dream,

by the normative lie..

Love to those without affection..

Care to those without warmth..

Speak to those without voice..

I'm in love with love..

Knowing love can betray your feelings,

one can never say no..

Knowing the eyes of desperation,

one can never say no..

I was never in someone's possession,

therefore I have the time to care..

No one will ever be in my possession,

therefore I have the choice to love..

When mistake can't be undone,

it can only be forgotten..

When love can't be undone,

it can only be remembered..

Unspoken Departure

2010-09-21T04:09:00.000-07:00

Always begin with a conversation,

a very purposeful conversation,

a very lifeless conversation,

without realising that it wasn't,

even a conversation to begin with..

Words of expression,

one of the insight within me,

along the way of sorrow and wrath,

during the unforgiving times of regrets..

One can never tell how you're feeling,

but I can always tell how I'm making you feel.

And, I can feel what you can feel,

I can tell the loneliness between both of us..

Your eyes betray you for what you're saying,

the only thing I can see was your heart through your eyes,

not the lies from your very lips,

no matter how much you speak,

it doesn't matter a single word of it..

What's in Your Backpack?- Ryan Bingham

2010-09-17T18:56:00.000-07:00

"Now, I'm gonna set that backpack on fire"

"What do you want to take out of it? Photos?"

"Photos are for people who can't remember."

"Drink some ginkgo and let the photos burn."

"In fact, let everything burn and imagine waking up tomorrow with nothing."

"It's kind of exhilarating, isn't it?"

Nobelistic Peasant

2010-09-17T05:34:00.000-07:00

"Sometimes even the charismatic can't get what they want, even the rich can't get what they need.."

-Delacrix Morgan

How sensitivity is defined?

The more you feel the more sensitive you are?

The more you "small gas" the more sensitive you are?

The more you understand the more sensitive you are?

I think the terminology of sensitivity of a person is longed mistaken,

you might consider the modern sensitivity as inconsiderate,

the olden understanding as the current sensitivity,

it might sound harsh, but it's the naked truth..

Some might blame the nobelistic background of one individual,

where you have nothing to lose,

in this realistic world,

you won't run of "friends" with such nobelistic status..

What is truly wanted?

A person who can follow you whenever you want to go?

A person who only speaks the things you want to hear?

A person who forgives you no matter how much it hurt?

A person who cares,

A person who worries,

A person who feels,

What is truly needed?

Although all is forgiven, when all is forgotten,

but how ethical and awareness of one should be?

I believe there should be people addressing,

without further ado, there must be hurt no more..

You fall in love with the nobelistic,

that person seemed be different among the nobels..

How can a person like you who even have the slightness feeling for a plant,

and nobelistic figure with idolistic icons..

Arise and Awake!

2010-09-15T02:33:00.000-07:00

One of my most favourite book.. In the dawn of my passion towards quotes, I met this book in my very eyes.. This book is a very philosophical book of self-enrichment, self-reflection.. I gave this book away as a gift to a person I love when I was Form 3, as I surrender my treasure to Melody.. I never make it, was another romance failure in my life and I never saw that book again.. For years I've been searching for the book, and it was no where to be found, because the author isn't some white person.

Ironically, which recently I fall into the same place again, another life's failure of my love life. Guess what? From the least I expected, I met this book once again after 3 years of search. I was much cheaper than last time, it was RM50 back then, now it's only RM40 in Kinokuniya(which prices will be much higher a bit). But, it was a very delighted moments within the slums of misery.

Actually I just read finished the book. It was so satisfying, it's a book of quotes and philosophy with simplicity. It can became my bible I suppose. Oh, 3 years ago it was this very book at the back cover. There was a quote from Mother Teresa,

“Before you speak, it is necessary for you to listen, for God speaks in the silence of the heart.”

It was the very quote that let me fell in love with Mother Teresa and her works.

After reading it, I just realised that I've already choose an adventure for myself.. =)

Never The Beginning, Never The Last

2010-09-13T04:17:00.001-07:00

Relationships are always something to lose,

every faces when you can see clearly now,

are already being long forgotten..

No echo of sweetness..

No urge of recovering..

No sense of belonging..

I've already belonged to you,

from the very start,

from that one little hold of hand..

It was the warmth of your heart,

that warms me,

not the sparkle of lust..

I've already fixed my heart for you,

why broke it again,

leaving me all by myself..

..picking up the shatters of my own reflection..

Imagine

2010-09-01T03:34:00.000-07:00

Imagine,

you met this person, at first you don't feel a thing because she was cold to you all the time. then, you both happened to be in a same class and there's nothing different of this person.. this person was just another person in my life, this person didn't even waved a "hi" in the corridor to you.

Imagine,

you happen to attend some stupid seminar and you both happened to be together for the whole day. it was unexpected, it was your very special day on that day and happened to be that she gave you a very special present on that day of yours, the present that you just started to notice her in your life.. oh, on the another hand, it was also your worst day in your life too, this was when that break up started with another person..

Imagine,

you are fated that you both get closer and closer in each time you both met. it was the beginning of friendship. you both spend the last days of that semester quite closely and it was suppose to be a depressing, impossible fact, she is graduating and you're just started your life here.. of course, someone close to you told you something, never to fall in love with her, because you're full of confusion between friends and lovers. you agree with her and you said to yourself, you won't fall in love for her. who can stop love?

Imagine,

you organize a trip and hope that everyone can have fun.. of course everything went well, but you keep hiding behind the scene and just intently want to make this trip memorable. you betrayed your mother by your honesty and innocent. but, everything doesn't matter in the end, you're just too glad to see everyone having fun with it..

Imagine,

you began your semester side by side with her.. and, all you do is to care for her, always be there for her, always be available for her.. because it is perhaps fate that you both are bounded to be together.. there is always times that you're so out of breath, behind on time, but you still nod your head because your heart told you so.. is this love?

Imagine,

you began to care for her, worried for her.. you just couldn't bare to see her having a hard time.. you tried your best to company her, cheer her up.. isn't that everyone always want to cheer people up? this is where you just realized that you have this attachment with her, feelings that couldn't be untie. so, you guess that this is it.. how everything can be so dependable on the feel?

Imagine,

she hurt you on a very night.. she told you not to bother her when you are just wishing her luck.. you went down, you are being stabbed and you are left with tears within.. but, you keep that smiling face, trying to understand her, keep yourself happy by keeping her happy.. all is forgiven, all is forgotten..

Imagine,

someone told you that she can accompany you whenever you need her, because she don't want you to be alone.. but, she didn't.. of course you understand that for sometime, and you went on without her.. it was a tiring and emotional daylight for you, you can see people's smiling face all around, people hand by hand.. love is in the air..

Imagine,

you're just very exhausted and you said something out of your mind.. and since then, everything was never again the same.. you keep apologizing and felt very bad.. but, things were still the same.. sometimes you wished that you should have lie, sometimes you wish you should have just make up a story.. but, you didn't..

Imagine,

from that day onwards.. she keep giving you the feeling that she doesn't want to talk with you whenever you spoke.. she said you care too much..she said that you make her bored by your care..

Imagine,

your love for her, is wrong..

readers of my time

2010-07-26T06:53:00.000-07:00

my blog readers
1)Loretta
2)Beez
3)Win Shi
4)Sherene

haha.. i got a lot to write, but i'm blank now..

basically, i don't have any good memories with blogger.. all the time was i reporting how misery my life is with my poetic touch in this blog.. 7 blogs i've wrote, never one have reached 200th post.. but, this one.. i've finished with 200th..

sometimes, memories do spoiled the fun.. i've so much misery and sorrow over here.. i kept changing blogs, it's because i died my heart with that blog with a particular person or event..

like i said,
a writer can not go on without a reader..

i might write all i can, but i'll not write the best..
i was always hoping someone close with me can take a look at my blog to understand me at least..

maggie. sorry i couldn't cope up with the way you express when you write your blog.. i seriously will read it when you're down.. when i want to understand what are you thinking and what's troubling you..

this is when, i started to have this conscious of writing blog in order people to understand me.. but,i also don't want them to understand so easily.. to prevent people to stalk me of course..

blog has let me express and develop my poetic skills.. although there's only around 5 people who read it, but it stills keeps me going.. i can write love letters without hesitation, but with inspiration..

i always wanted people to talk with me about what i wrote in my blog.. i dunno, it might be too selfish to ask a lot.. that's how life is i suppose..

at last, my thanks.. to loretta, although i didn't care much for you, but it's surprisingly that you did managed to read my blog..

beez.. erm.. well.. you seldom online and talked about it.. but, as i know you did read my blog.. i'll be very relieved and happy already.. =)

win shi? first and only comment ever..

sherene? erm.. you were my loyal reader.. it's may i lost faith in our friendship..

i've a final quote before i end..

" i always write the best during my lowest period of life.."

-delacrix morgan

things to remind me if i fall into couplism

2010-07-25T06:23:00.000-07:00

won't

1) i won't tie up my gf
2) i won't always stick with my gf
3) i won't have meaningless unstopping phone conversation with my gf
4) i won't force my gf to do anything
5) i won't consider her as MY gf, i will consider myself as her lover.. =)

will,

1) i will give her space instead of robbing her from her friends like everyone does
2) i will be absolute honest with her
3) i will just be like what we are now, as the way she started to love me
4) i will write poetry for her
5) i will hear her every single word and understand her

hope,

1) i hope she can speak chinese
2) i hope she love poetry
3) i hope she will be honest to me
4) i hope she can feel safe
5) i hope she can be happy everytime we're together

why am listing this?
it might be that i just went back from jusco and saw a bunch of couples in front of me.. =_=
a lot of people might referred me as an act of jealousy..
well, i'm not..
i think it's not my time yet..
i just upset with how people hate me for loving them.. =_=

well, seriously i hate how couplism is being portrayed now..
and, i don't want to fall into that kind of sick culture..
perhaps is just keeping my depression level low..

don't ask me next time whether i have a gf or not,
ask me whether am i someone's lover or not..

the word gf is so selfish, it's like a sense of belonging that no other can touch..
she is still she, the one you fall for her,
what's difference of being in a relationship and not in a relationship?

come on, give her a break!
let her join her friends!
she doesn't belong to you for the phucking sake!
she belongs to everyone!
we belonged to everyone!
so for once,
could you let her put down the bloody phone for God's sake!

being in a relationship,
is not to be belonged,
is to be grateful of that,
its always nice to know someone is afraid to lose you.
LOL..

just kidding,
i love you.. =)

2010-07-24T20:55:00.000-07:00

sometimes what keeps me going is realizing that they are so much people that believed in you..

2010-07-23T23:09:00.001-07:00

oops.. i talked too much.. XD.. haha!

2010-07-23T22:55:00.001-07:00

what can photo tell? you tell me..

2010-07-23T22:46:00.000-07:00

life can find its way, why not love?

idea without talent

2010-07-23T21:55:00.000-07:00

ideas, i've always giving them.. i wrote poetry to people who won't read, but people ask me to write poetry for them, because their love ones read them.. i've gave my copyright away, it makes no difference to me since that my love ones doesn't care what's in that piece of paper?

but, why am i still writing them? what keeps me going to write to somebody that doesn't them? i guess it's the love, the love i have for love, like a dream within a dream.. love seemed a dream i can never wake up with.. again and again, i've so lot of presents have given to my love ones in their birthdays.. they didn't seemed to care, what's such a big deal of birthdays?

whine no more, i'm really happy for what i've for birthday.. although it might be a lost in somewhere else, i guess it's what should happen.. i shouldn't talk to you anymore.. you sucked.. with your arsehole boyfriend.. you've no idea how paranoid i've became after that night.. you said you will be responsible for this.. you said you didn't break any promise.. you broke the god damn promise by letting him listening to our conversation! you bloody remember now? you freaking hypocrite ignorant bastard! i hate you!

i won't bloody mention the phucking word of you and bloody boyfriend again!

ah, yes.. now is now in another love run.. i really hope you can understand me.. all i want is to give, i don't to take any.. i just really hope you can understand that all i want is you, you will see me as a friend, a good friend instead, why couldn't we be romantic? know i might be not that charismatic, not a person who is good at talking..

i really how you can understand, i'll be just waiting..

until my turn to be that frog of yours..

2010-07-23T16:40:00.001-07:00

go make something different will you?
not necessary must be complicated as eu sheng with michelle,
not necessary must be so wonderful as eu sheng to michelle,
be yourself, do what you can do,
feel what you can feel..

2010-07-23T08:07:00.001-07:00

i'm gonna bet my everything in one thing again.. =_=
i hope this can work..
i'm tired already..

recap behalf mine

2010-07-23T07:47:00.000-07:00

i've always blame others for treating me nothing but a friend,
just a friend,
not a lover, nothing beyond that line..

i've no charm, i've no luck,
don't expect much fro me,
what good i can be without being friendly as i am in now?

i've learnt something in class today,
something that reflected and kind of solve my riddle,
i've id blinded with my superego..

i'm depress once more, again and again..
am i doing the wrong thing of being friendly enough?
no lovers' life to expect?

if that's so,
how much life i've already ruined?
omg, i've always been an enemy against my love venture..

T___T

astrological coincidence?

2010-07-22T09:10:00.000-07:00

some might say it's a war between the taurus and the scorpio..
i do not share the same view,
i'm apple..

"I think we're having fun. I think our customers really like our products. And we're always trying to do better.."
-Steve Jobs

2010-07-22T06:42:00.000-07:00

rule#1:
screw you logic.. screw you common sense..

2010-07-22T02:24:00.001-07:00

everything is at risk.. and i'm scared..

another love run

2010-07-21T02:53:00.001-07:00

i seriously have no idea why i ended up in the same place again..

love is really a gamble, all your efforts can just become nightmares overnight, by a words of choice, by a choice of decision..

i've so much to lose, for another and another never ending love run.. it seemed to be Déjà vu all over again..

risk it or leave it? that's the question..
i've chosen to risk, i've chosen to lose..
because i always have believed that my love was never a mistake..
just something of me to be given away..
that's why i always lose..

although i've so much to lose, but i'm still in love..
here, we go again.. -,-

2010-07-06T17:18:00.001-07:00

wanting a relationship, yet hate seeing people having one..

.:reasons of the unforgiving:.

2010-07-05T04:41:00.000-07:00

today i went to bukit tinggi jusco and planned to:

1) find my fedora hat (i hate malaysia very muchie)

2) buy my pants(i'm wearing my 2 semi pants for 4 years already and my mom is complaining..)

3) buy some interesting book in popular (i love to buy books, and "trying" my best to read them..)

4) buy car accessories( the leaf moving solar thingy- i found it cute and no where to be found)

5) Steve Jobs Fashion( the turtleneck long sleeve shirt, bloody couldn't find anywhere but at World Cup, I founded and God damned Bukit Tinggi Jusco don't have Nike.. =_=)

and,

can you see the yellow sweater inside? i want it in black.. >,<

conclusion,

i hate bukit tinggi jusco and i love sunway pyramid..

.:people i sounded like in facebook:.

2010-07-04T08:06:00.000-07:00

while glancing through facebook, i always saw these two guys.. they both sounded just like me, that's scary.. the approach they used are nearly same with me, which that creeps me. not because of them, it's that they are reflecting what i am doing.. and, what i'm doing is wrong.. i'm too selfish on pursuit for oneself.. approach.. sounds like a thousand words, with just a word.. apporach... sigh..

alan

aaron

.:wings of liberty:.

2010-07-01T22:58:00.001-07:00

my wings of liberty..

i call it, my own Lamborghini..

.:sday:.

2010-07-01T02:19:00.001-07:00

after editting the gathering of the quacks photos, then i started to download courage the cowardly dog.. i missed watching it.. there's no more creativity in cartoons, despite of whether it's disney or cartoon network, there's no more originality in them..

well.. today, i tried to plug in my laptop into the tv.. WOW.. the effect was awesome.. imagine facebooking and blogging in this large screen.. the experience is amazing.. plus, tv has bigger speakers, that means music~! well, reading Alan Moore's comic in tv wouldn't be bad.. it's so much easier, i just need a clicker to smoothening the experience..

alone at home isn't such a bad thing at all.. it's peace..

.:gathering of the quacks:.

2010-07-01T01:12:00.000-07:00

today morning, just as i woke up, then i just have this inspiration of illustrating the scene of our yesterday's conversation depicted us going to ivan's house..

i love LeQuack, blargh.. Ivan got to be that duck.. XP

Duckie Van..

Penguin Yip..

Y-Yip

I-Is

P-Penguin..

Well, I was quite satisfy with the product actually.. Although it cost my entire morning.. But, I'm happy to see it that way.. =) hope that we can have these kind of conversation in time.. it's fun..

this is the entire conversation at ivan's wall,

John Ng Bee Beez Alyssa Jynael Yeoh Maggie Lee Delacrix Morgan Jeffrey Lim -IVAN mau WEDNESDAY gathering wor. 20more mins! LOL
16 hours ago · Comment · · See Wall-to-Wall · Remove tag
John Ng
MAPS- (by ivan) :D
16 hours ago ·
Ivan Kok
walao, u mau leh..blame me pulak =.="....anyway..MAPS =)
16 hours ago ·
John Ng
yaya~ Mari greenies, don tell me your bo steady wor! >_<
16 hours ago ·
Maggie Lee
SPAMMMMM. Lol. =.= So what? Now we all fly over to your house and gather ar?
16 hours ago ·
Bee Beez
lol...what 20more mins?
16 hours ago ·
Ivan Kok
20mins more than say bye bye to wednesday ><
16 hours ago ·
John Ng
yaya! jom pergi ivan's hse! GATHERING.. :D
16 hours ago ·
Bee Beez
ooo...lol....Our gathering still on right....
16 hours ago ·
Ivan Kok
lai lai XD
16 hours ago ·
Maggie Lee
Yes, Bee, now there's another gathering on...TONIGHT. Hurry up!! I'm on the way liao!!
16 hours ago · · 1 person
John Ng
wo lai! :D
16 hours ago ·
Ivan Kok
yip, only u know where's my house, but u dunno which block n which floor n which unit...muahahahah
16 hours ago ·
John Ng
gather outside ur hse lo! HAHA
16 hours ago ·
Maggie Lee
I don't even know where that is. -___- I wait outside TBS! Yip! Come fetch me! :D
16 hours ago ·
John Ng
Okay, vroom vrooooom! :P
16 hours ago ·
Ivan Kok
ohh, tell me before u guys reach ><>
16 hours ago ·
Bee Beez
=.=''''''''' serious meh?
16 hours ago ·
Ivan Kok
serious lo! 10mins left dai ka jie =D
16 hours ago ·
John Ng
maggie! we're late, faster jump in.! LOL
16 hours ago ·
Maggie Lee
jumps HURRY UPPPPP! AHHHHHHHHH!!
16 hours ago ·
Maggie Lee
[Walao. We very SS hor. =.=]
16 hours ago ·
Ivan Kok
SS is what =.=?
16 hours ago ·
Delacrix Morgan
running on highway to tbs
16 hours ago · ·
Maggie Lee
SYOK SENDIRI.
16 hours ago ·
Bee Beez
ok....now i use my dad's super car to yr house now!!!!.....
16 hours ago ·
John Ng
memang loh.. but for last few mins nvm lah.. Haha
16 hours ago ·
Ivan Kok
no need, u all wait at ur house, my UFO coming to fetch u guys... XDD
16 hours ago ·
Maggie Lee
6 more minutes!! Ivan's makeup is going to disappear at 12am!! Ahhhh!!
16 hours ago ·
Delacrix Morgan
why no one at tbs de? i'm at tbs d.. using my handphone to online.. =_=
16 hours ago · ·
Maggie Lee
You are too late. We already inside Ivan's UFO.
16 hours ago ·
John Ng
okay, i'm in ivan's UFO dy, who's next? Xp
16 hours ago ·
Delacrix Morgan
me.. at tbs..
16 hours ago · ·
John Ng
ivan-still gt morgan ah..
16 hours ago ·
Ivan Kok
morgan, too late sry =( 1 more min reach 12am d >< plate =".=">
16 hours ago · · 1 person
Delacrix Morgan
nvm.. i'm taking the taxi..
16 hours ago · ·
Bee Beez
lol..damn funny la yr....alyssa is going to kill us all.....
16 hours ago ·
Ivan Kok
gg, 12.01am d.....byeeee wednesday, hello thursday =)
16 hours ago ·
John Ng
ivan will be served as a duck on the plate.. haha
16 hours ago ·
Maggie Lee
Malaysia Duck! [Ref to Beijing Duck]
16 hours ago ·
Delacrix Morgan
still in taxi
16 hours ago · ·
John Ng
wow, the duck could speak! LOL
16 hours ago ·
Ivan Kok
............. enough d, dun SS lo...we are die-ing soon....when alyssa is back =(
16 hours ago ·
Maggie Lee
The duck knows how to use facebook! STEADY!
16 hours ago · · 1 person
Delacrix Morgan
STEADY~!
16 hours ago · ·
Ivan Kok
im not duck leh, =.= yip is 'duck'
16 hours ago ·
John Ng
Yah.. so steady.. alyssa will be happy to see duck on the plate.. aka malaysia duck.. haha
16 hours ago ·
Bee Beez
who is duck?
16 hours ago ·
Delacrix Morgan
ivan is duck, john is penguin..
16 hours ago · ·
Ivan Kok
morgan! i'm not duck, u forgotten my nickname =(
16 hours ago ·
Delacrix Morgan
ducky panda..
16 hours ago · ·
John Ng
yay! john likeee penguin.. Xp
16 hours ago ·
Ivan Kok
omgsssssssssssss......
16 hours ago ·
Ivan Kok
penguin = hand short short XD
16 hours ago ·
Maggie Lee
Now I'm starting to find this spammy...
16 hours ago ·
Ivan Kok
whose fault?! yip lo!!!
16 hours ago ·
Maggie Lee
DIE, PENGUIN. DIEEEEE!
16 hours ago ·
John Ng
penguin's hand just nice to wash the tummy.. so cute.. hahaha
16 hours ago ·
John Ng
=.= penguin is protected animal can? stay legal!
16 hours ago ·
Maggie Lee
Yameh? But I thought the species Penguin Yip is not protected. Eh, different species lah, Penguin Yip and penguin.
16 hours ago ·
Delacrix Morgan
let's go hun Penguin Yip on next thursday.. Ivan Duck, bring a net lol..
16 hours ago · ·
John Ng
still penguin loh.. same catogory wad..
16 hours ago ·
Maggie Lee
Should call him Duckie Van, easier to call. :D And Penguin Yip. Yay!
16 hours ago · · 1 person
John Ng
hides
16 hours ago ·
Delacrix Morgan
Penguin Yip too much d.. need to hunt..
16 hours ago · ·
Maggie Lee
We're gonna get killed by Alyssa. So yeah, before that happens, I better go sleep now! =P Good night!
16 hours ago ·
Delacrix Morgan
Good night!
16 hours ago · ·
Bee Beez
Good Night Greenies!!!

-The End of Conversation-
15 hours ago ·
John Ng
spam again next week.. lol
8 hours ago ·

.:art or junk?:.

2010-06-29T02:37:00.000-07:00

initial plan

product so far..

2010-06-28T18:20:00.000-07:00

Easter Egg#01

tribute to king of pop

2010-06-28T18:08:00.000-07:00

it's already a year already of his death! time really do, creeps me up.. i was just preparing for spm when MJ is dead.. a lot of have changed already, within this matter of time.. well, my tribute to MJ and a trivia perhaps to my blog reader(s)..

they didn't acted out purposely.. it's purely a coincident..

.:my hate story with nokia:.

2010-06-28T05:50:00.000-07:00

i love nokia until i hate it..

Nokia released a phone, which I found it ideal.

1) it's cheap

2) it's beautiful

3) it's sleek

4) it's a FLIP PHONE~!

It's~!

Nokia Prism 7070..

The damned part is that, I couldn't buy it in Malaysia because the bloody Nokia only released in Europe. Okie, so last year I gone to London and it's so pain in the arse that in fact that the whole city of London only has one freaking Nokia retailer shop. Luckily I search from Google Map while I'm in Malaysia, or else I will never find the bloody shop. Nokia seemed to be extincted in London, iPhones and Blackberry is so abundant in every streets, every tube station.

When I'm at the bloody Nokia Store at Oxford Circus Street, Nokia Prism 7070 is not unavailable already. Okok, nevermind, I go find second hand shop, perhaps people "change" their phones already. I might have the chance to find it there. Ya, you know the result, I found nothing. That's why I hate Nokia very much.

Secondly, my eye caught up with,

Nokia 5630XM

It has everything I've always wanted.

1) design and sleek

2) wifi

3) 3.2 Megapixel Camera with Autofocus

4) GPS

5) it has BUTTONS~!

The damned thing is that, this phone is not for sale in this Malaysia.. =_=

Only available, nearest to me, Singapore.. =_=

What's the fuss with Nokia of bring this Nokia to Malaysia?.. =_=

Then,

comes in.. iPhone 4 in white is always wonderful. But, the catch is, it's so freaking expensive..

i guess, i'm gonna stick with Nokia.. =_= which is the only phone company that still believes in buttons.. ^_^

the darn thing is that FLIP PHONES are very rare in Nokia..

or should i change to Sony Ericsson? (for the sake of FLIP PHONES)

=_= this phone is not available in Malaysia..

..................

2010-06-28T03:45:00.000-07:00

attachment of romance makes oneself unpure, it's all a hypocritical misbelief and i was a believer until i wasn't one, when i couldn't be one, after i met one..

2010-06-28T03:44:00.001-07:00

tragic happens in a slight of sound, a touch of movement.. what is truly tragic? it isn't tragic once it's always is.. well then, is life itself a true tragic to begin with?

2010-06-28T03:42:00.001-07:00

i'm not nourished by one true love, but instead a delusion of love.

2010-06-27T09:45:00.000-07:00

sometimes i do envy the friendship between two girls, which for a person like me wouldn't have a chance to be..

.:wheels that can fly:.

2010-06-26T09:26:00.000-07:00

This is my car.. well, it's not the exact picture because I just use a website photo. Now, imagine that it is yellow, ain't that cool?

This is my dream car.. Volkswagen Bettle.

Some might ask why I chose this tiny little car although I am a very tall guy. First of all, I didn't have the chance to choose. Secondly, it's my ticket out.

I haven't gotten my license to drive yet, it seemed to be forever till it reaches. Although my family have a lot of objections. But, I do it anyways. I'm going to my last driving class tomorrow, and my final driving test on Monday. Then, Hallelujah~!

To Hell with driving lessons, they keep threatening you to fail the God damned test.

I hate this nation.

.:my love story with nokia:.

2010-06-25T05:48:00.000-07:00

Nokia.. A lot of people's first phone would be Nokia 3310, although everyone mocks about it all the time. But, it really do brings back memories. My first phone happens to be an Ericsson phone, I didn't know the model number.. All I know that it was big and ancient, no smses and monotone ringtone tone.. My first phone, was for the sake of contacting by the time, because I was living in my grandmother's house and my mother want to contact with me privately..

.:nokia 3310:.

here, nokia 3310, that was my second phone as soon as I am like you all, borned with the necessity of phones. Actually, my younger brothers don't have phones. I sometimes wonder how can they survive without phones. I need phones because I was close with Maggie and my grandmother. So, I got immediately granted a phone with no second thought. Because Maggie and me always are outside and it will be easy to be contact through both of from Maggie's mother which can be considered very concern of both of us. After that, my grandmother. She's very concern of me rather than my younger brothers, I don't know why, but it seemed to that it is how things is.

This phone was used by my mother for 4 years. Then , it was passed down to me. Well, my history with this phone is that I spend my high school life with this phone. Every pain of love, every childish sense of words are being typed to this very phone. It's the phone that saw my growth. After 5 years, the phone's screen is spoiled. The phone is easy to use. But, the most annoying part of it is that it's sms can only save up to 10sms.. Are you kidding me? That's how I developed my habit of documented down my sms into ink and paper.

.:nokia n87:.

Then, it was replaced by this phone. Well, not exactly this phone . It's a China Nokia touch screen phone. I hate China's products, I agree to use this phone is because I need an alarm clock so desperately. From this phone, I used Bluetooth for the first time. I play songs from my phone for the first time. There's a lot of first times with this phone after so many years behind me where my friends have changed a dozen of phones already.

Actually, I'm already wanting to change the Nokia 3310 for a long time. This is when I developed my addiction towards researching phones. Seriously, your phone is more attracted to me than your looks. That was me during my high school life. But, I always keep waiting and waiting for the price to drop. You see, the phones by the time were as freaking expensive. Then, I keep waiting and waiting. As soon as that phones reaches the price I wanted, then there is a newer phone. Then, I keep waiting again and again. And, the day of me changing phones, never came.

.:nokia 6230i:.

actually this was maggie's old phone, because she changed her phone to a nokia 5130xm. This phone was left abandon and its battery was spoiled. The reasons why I ask for this phone because I was frustrated with the touch screen of N87. Plus, it's a China Nokia and make a lot of things incompatible. Well, this is also the phone I'm using right now.

I was searching for my ideal Nokia phone, with wifi and good camera and with BUTTONS~! I've found it, and I couldn't get it.. =_=

.:genting summer escape:. -reflection

2010-06-24T00:35:00.000-07:00

.:wednesday greenies:.

Bee Beez, Maggie, Alyssa, Ivan, John, Jeffery and me.

It was the first time for me to organize a trip. I'm sorry that Alyssa couldn't join, by the next trip I will make everyone present. Well, through this time I realized that I preferred mountains than beaches. It seems that everyone love beaches and swimming, that's how I found out.

In the morning, I reached McDonald and ordered a tea. It was 7am in the morning, there are no other shops open yet by such early hour. When I open my laptop and entered facebook, I saw Ivan's facebook update that was 2 hours ago. Then, I was worried that whether he can make it in time. It is because the bus is leaving at 9.30am.

I brought them to Maggie's Setia Alam's house. They are surprised of Maggie's house, they considered it big. It's a guilt that they didn't managed to entered into the house due to limited time. Damn. Hopefully, there will be chance again for them.

.:breakfast:.

i've no idea what's so funny about my mini-tripod stand for my camera.. well, i was quite surprise to found out that no people bought their cameras except me.. wow.. never image how everything can depend on this camera..

Well, we have bak kut teh together nearby Maggie's Meru's house. I don't quite like calling it as an old house, because it's much more than just a house. It's a piece of an important memory. Strange thing is that no ones want to drink tea, and there's no longer bak kut teh without the teh. For example an experience with Maggie, cendol without the cendol. Maggie's mother ordered quite a lot though, we kind of keep rushing while we are eating. My bad, I should have move the time forward of arrival. Sorrie..

.:Bus:.

This is also my first time handling such big responsibility of hotel reservations and transport and everyone's safety. So, I keep myself organize and time keeping to allow everyone enjoy their time to their best. I seriously couldn't believe that I can do this, I don't have much faith in myself even before and after. This trip finally proved my honesty towards myself and everyone. I've no lies between everything. I paid same as everyone, no less, no more.. I've triumph over greed and I've realized that I've finally reached my selfless state.

Ivan with the mask!? I found it hilarious.. >.<

blargh.. The picture is blur, although it's a nice picture. Pictures doesn't necessary need to clear in order to be memorable, it is the moment that I want to capture that only counts as a perfect memory. During the journey, all the boys slept, Ivan, Jeffery and John. Except for me, Maggie and Bee Beez awake and played UNO along the way.

.:3M's:.

Maggie

We spent our whole lives with each other. Especially in Genting which our family have a tradition of coming to Genting every single year without miss, but since last year this tradition has already been broken. Rejoice now that I am back to Genting, a peaceful place to rest my mind. Maggie is very special person in all her ways. She's supportive, liable, participating. She volunteered to transport us from one place to another, buy us breakfast, suggested ideas and participate the discussion more than others do. I couldn't find words to describe our relationship, after all we are both pair of weirdo cousins.. XD

[i just realized i didn't took any pictures individually with bee beez through the genting trip.. =_=]

Michelle(Bee Beez)

Well, what's more to say? She's a wonderful person and perhaps the reason of why we are all here. If it wouldn't be Bee, I won't able get to know much of every single person in Wednesday Greenies. Everything begun on that Sunway Ice Rink. If it wouldn't be that, we are all perhaps wouldn't be the way as we are now. I owe her lots of lots of thanks..

Morgan

I'm that third M.. =P

2010-06-23T22:25:00.000-07:00

you expect people want you to go ahead, but they somehow don't.. it's all because i'm crap..

2010-06-23T22:11:00.001-07:00

lost interest in his social life in facebook..

2010-06-23T22:07:00.001-07:00

need to hear what his inner voice have to say.. gimme a friday to think about it.. please and thank you..

2010-06-23T22:06:00.000-07:00

everybody is always talking about what's the next big thing.. i guess my next big thing, it that six month of time..

2010-06-23T18:58:00.001-07:00

although all you see is you struggling, but actually all three of us are too.. but, we express it in different ways..

2010-06-23T18:57:00.001-07:00

love really do is exchangable..

2010-06-23T07:32:00.000-07:00

you're standing back in the same position again, now the only difference you can make depends on how you face this romance crisis once and for all..

2010-06-21T16:26:00.001-07:00

misunderstand became a style, a style became a culture, a culture became meaningless..

2010-06-21T16:17:00.001-07:00

in a long run, we are all bastards in our own ways..

2010-06-21T07:36:00.001-07:00

they already have a special relationship, what do you have?

2010-06-21T06:58:00.000-07:00

are you in love with her?
are you so sick?
get a life..

2010-06-20T22:46:00.001-07:00

never knew pictures can be so beautiful.. i want to buy a big black camera..

2010-06-20T22:40:00.001-07:00

once again.. a dead afternoon.. until the late night..

2010-06-20T22:39:00.000-07:00

freaking need all 90's for next bloody semester just to get 80's as average..

2010-06-20T07:29:00.001-07:00

charismatic ain't he?

2010-06-20T07:18:00.001-07:00

i'm sickening of starting conversation.. if you don't care, i won't care.. that's my social life..

2010-06-20T06:52:00.003-07:00

if i did not speak a word, there will be no life between us.. is that so?

2010-06-20T06:49:00.000-07:00

there is no sense of solidity that us stand within this green soul..

2010-06-20T06:48:00.001-07:00

here i am, listening old love sad songs.. to touch his own heart..

2010-06-20T06:46:00.001-07:00

every interception lies a chance, and in every chance lies a choice..

2010-06-20T06:45:00.000-07:00

the sake of doing it was the sake of creating chances, chances of interception..

2010-06-20T06:39:00.001-07:00

patience..

2010-06-20T01:44:00.000-07:00

similar patterns in facebook as you can see..
sad.. anger.. love.. sorry..
we are all the same..
blargh..

2010-06-20T01:38:00.001-07:00

sometimes i can see the person that i've lost,in their eyes..
identity is so indispensable..

2010-06-19T23:10:00.001-07:00

genting escape on this coming tuesday.. i'll document it on this very blog..

2010-06-19T23:09:00.001-07:00

it is definitely a dead weekend in the online world of facebook and blogs..

2010-06-18T08:34:00.000-07:00

you can always see the strange world in an idle afternoon..

2010-06-18T08:09:00.000-07:00

how can you justify a beach is safer than a mountain?

2010-06-18T08:06:00.000-07:00

somehow prefer the mountains rather than beaches..
only a feeling..

2010-06-18T07:49:00.000-07:00

lol.. i couldn't feel anything do.. don't know what to write.. but, i'm happy of what i've written yesterday.. maybe i was expecting a comment.. oh well.. i'll write for the sake of philosophical satisfaction..

2010-06-18T07:02:00.000-07:00

department store is where everyone is legitimate to steal your money which colours and numbers with percentages..

2010-06-17T08:02:00.001-07:00

believe in that every second of life, is the play of strings of the unescapable fate.. as we see it as our will of choices, but actually all is a matter a feelings, feelings that fate have arranged.. it's all an illusion..

realization and understand are the keys of us who are the only few who can see the strings..

2010-06-17T07:34:00.001-07:00

all is now, now is all.. what do we have?

2010-06-17T06:29:00.000-07:00

do you believe in genetic inheritance of personalities? i don't give a damn of it.. in my view, it's all hypocritical bullshit..

if you said that personalities can be inherited, then my question to you is that why love can be so exchangeable?

and why you always say that you are the person you are? so, you're telling me that once you love a person, and going to spend your whole life with that person?

you can change your love towards another person, but why not change your personality into something not being genetical?

ain't it the same analogy of this philosophy?

2010-06-17T05:46:00.000-07:00

understand not some people in my life, even myself is not truly understandable yet..

2010-06-16T08:45:00.001-07:00

reality show reflected what i am.. shouldn't it or shouldn't not watch more of it?

2010-06-15T04:56:00.002-07:00

driving lessons aren't a pleasure experience afterall, it never was.. it's all pure threat, or is it that life is the threat itself?

2010-06-15T04:56:00.001-07:00

in life, you can meet dead people alive.. somehow..

2010-06-14T21:25:00.000-07:00

finally could sleep well, after so many days of insomia that no one took notice..

2010-06-14T21:14:00.001-07:00

update to bee:
this is update..